My new "Girlfriend" from Central....

(Pic Above:Me and Kiki finally together nor... Pic Below:(^V^) 抱抱...好吗??)

Hey,i got myself a new "Girl-friend" in Central nor...This is the Kiki that i have been harping about the past few days...She's from Taiwan and she's really really cute...You guys shd have seen the outfit she changed into later,i went like "WOW" when i saw her other outfit,it was like the betting odds from a Man U vs Liverpool game...Those of you who know what i mean..good for you,for those who dun...Sorry...(T-T)
So,lucky she came to show me first after changing... She's really cute right?Hehe,we got hug hug somemore nor....(^V^) Nitez people...

Welcome to Hongkong's Central!!!

No,i did not got to Hongkong at all,this is Amelia and she's from Hongkong...So what a place to get to know her...haha,at 中环(Central)... Well,she did not look like this at first,but after i made some comments,i repeat ah,I ONLY,MADE SOME COMMENTS...about her previous hair style,and she went to get it rebonded...She used to have very wavy and curly hair below her ear level while the rest was totally straight...So i said it made her look funny,next day,she got it rebonded...(^V^)... But she looks quite like 陈松伶,dun you all think so...but the important thing is her friend,whom i know also...There....the Kiki lor...Everybody knows who Kiki is right? The interesting thing is that her friend Kiki is from Taiwan...(^V^)...and the whole world knows how much i like Taiwan right???
Btw,i kept such a serious face for this picture not because i dun like her ah,but someone was in the background la,i dun want people to lata cao cao niam...Lata got gossip here and gossip there again....(^V^) Dun know why leh,the foreign gers there always kanna pint point with me de...like last time that Shirley like dat... Now they still talking about the "Come down to Central...HAO MAH?" lousy joke... Getting worse sia,my phobia of sleep,now den come home...So sadz...

Central's Da Pai....

Haha...This is Rein from Central...Also known as the one that always ask people to Diao Zui down there...We everytime also "Yi Yah Hey,Li Na Beh"...(^V^) In the beginning,i always lose de,but now days...haha...I now fan bai wei sheng le...Someone actually asked me before,"Why you all call her Xiao Zhu ah?She dun look like him leh"...For that ignorant big nose aka hungry ghost,she call xiaozhu because she born in that year lah,not because she look like him can anot??? Go look for your KIKI lah,talk so much... But the nightly outings getting abit strenous nor...but what can i do? I'm afraid of going home so early and end up hu si luan xiang...

Liverpool will actually win this one...

Tonite Liverpool will take on Marseille,hmm...no matter what was said during the day,i pretty much think that Liverpool will win la...Real madrid will win also,and i have a feeling that they'll win big you know...So i'm guessing Liverpool will win 4-0 and Real will win 4-1...Why?Cause Madrid can defend to save their own asses...Sure got concede de,Liverpool defend better...

你说会记得我..还记得吗?

没有你每到夜裏回声变得好大,有没有什麽好方法让寂寞更听话,你最近还好吗?是不是也在思念裏挣扎?你说会记得我..还记得吗?你最近还好吗?忙碌吗?累 吗?心还会痛吗?如果真不得已忘了我,快向快乐出发,有再多的牵挂都已没有权利表达,旧情人给的问候比陌生人还尴尬..昨天远了,明天还长回忆模糊但巨 大,这样的深夜眼泪要怎样不流下.问自己习惯了吗?

it's really..... very unbearable....

Haven slept properly for so many days...times like this,no matter how pain my headache is...头痛不如心痛...Cmon la,end it for me now,just take me away...end it for he both of us...

Feelin unwell...

Saw Man U beat Derby 4-1 and Liverpool lose 1-3 to Reading juz now...I've been feeling real uncomfortable.I dun know why,but i just cant seem to feel "right"...It just keeps on feeling worse and worse for me...Sigh~~~It's ok,if my life wants to treat me this way,i'll have to live with it now,我认输但我不认命...Saw a couple breaking up today also..
孤单的我看恋人分手，女的泪流 男的沉默就像我们的痛,一条情路偏偏分头去走
每个爱仿佛有些雷同,不是谁犯错,爱了又躲,相互折磨...巴黎的街灰蒙蒙的夜,担心你此刻是否有人安慰...找间小店喝一杯咖啡,苦不堪言 杯里浮现你哭泣的脸,惊动所有爱怜 伸手想去挽回...怕一碰心全破碎...越是爱你越想躲你,靠太近就怕否定真心,不问不看不听,逃出温柔也把热情浇熄,越是躲你越想爱你,离太远人孤 寂...眼底心底都是你,却难搂在怀里...怕爱过火 又怕爱不够,只好不停的躲 伤了你伤了我...是我错

i am here...i am alone...

Sigh~~~back home le...although Central closed late today,i still dun wanna come home...Home is used to be where one can find solace and escape from all reality that is happening ard me...Ytd got very upset,so had a bit more...But was still afraid to sleep...Almost got into an accident but didn't,would it have been better if i had not avoided it???home is now a cage for everything i keep in here...It's like a prison...
你说会永远想念我,我知道爱情已经死掉,你把自由还给了我,我却无力可逃,分分秒秒都想起你对我的好
我想要一帖相思的解药,被回忆关起来教人受不了,你宣判我的无期徒刑,孤单是我的背号
我在漆黑的夜幢里,看著心被爱焚烧,你给我一个爱的监牢,用思念作一副手铐
我号啕大哭,我颓废的笑,外面有没有人听得到,我知道爱是一个监牢
可是我不能不往里面跳,吹寂寞的风,守时间的孤岛,心睡在冰雪里而明天只是个问号

Only have got me myself and i...

Back home earlier today...Still can't get any sleep done...Why is it that whenever i close my eyes,happy memories that have become painful flood my mind...Sleeping is a phobia to me now...I'm even afraid to close my eyes for more than 3 seconds...Sigh~~~
Anyway,just now,Amanda was crying very badly in front of me,i see le also abit xin teng...Hey girl,dun worry ok?Like i promised you,we'll settle it together,you dun have to go thru this sh*t yourself,that's what i'm there for mah...I'm there forever de,and i'm really good at this type of things...You shd know,we've done it so many times le,and all those that used me before all say good...用过的都说好...this will not be a problem for us now...(^V^)ok?Smile...

Back home le...

Just now at Central Bar i got to know a new friend.Her name's Emily...Well,the world is sure small...She stays near where i used to study in primary school and her school was oppsite my house...Hmm small world...This world continues to hold so many surprises yet for me.Anyway,she works at Citispa and does part-time here...Nice to know you Emily...Sorry that your boyfriend is a bit unhappy that you're taller than him...
You do not need to know how much i miss you,just always remember that i love you

i cant sleep...

Back from Central bar...I'm now so afraid of falling asleep,because when i close my eyes,the times and memories start flowing back...I gotta try to keep awake,it's the best way now,it doesn't hurt that much wheni do something...maybe if i work hard enough...i can make myself so tired that i can finally just drop and fall into eternal sleep...maybe...

心伤心痛不痛...

It's 4am...and i cant sleep...It's getting worse day by day...Everytime i close my eyes,happy moments start flowing back,i'm too afraid to sleep,because i'll dream of .... Very soon i wun be able to take it anymore...Actually you made a choice right...that's why u become so willing to hurt me by letting me read all those things...I cannot blame you but i just did what i think was right den...If i could go back,i would do it all over again...If i made a mistake by falling for you,den i would wan my entire life to be a mistake...and end it now...End it just for you...
你笑着说他是朋友,但你眼中太温柔....我的不安那么沉重,只有你不懂...
他霸占了你的心中属于我的角落,所以你说我们不是你和我
是我想太多,你总这样说,但你却没有真的心疼我
是我想太多,我也这样说,这是唯一能安慰我的理由
我想我没有错怪了什么,虽然你不说都是错在我,太晚我才懂爱了你太多

You dun know the real meaning of things...

Morning is here,so fast...seems like i just laid on my bed on unable to catch any real sleep and it's already morning le,why do the nights past so quickly for the past few days...I know it's very easy for you to leave,you just shut the door and walk away,not even checking if the person walking with you got trapped in the door that you slammed shut anot...
We've been together long enough to do things that we both understand without saying anything...but if you feel that what i did was unforgivable and you dun wanna give me the chance of explaining.It's fine.You can choose to continue to lie to yourself and think that i really am such an asshole and that i want to try treat you that way willingly...But you are wrong lor,lying to oneself will only not help matters but end up making things worse.Why suffer by having negative thots...And if you want to enlist other's help in making me feel uncomfortable and sad,i tell you ok,you succeeded extremely well,i lost all will in continuing any treatment,if you really mean you want me gone,i tell you what,don't use those type of tactics,i do it personally,i end it myself.Easier...Seriously it has always been about urself hasn't it? Since you made your choice,i'll let you believe what you did is right...I wun correct you now,but if you think the times and happy moments cannot withstand something like this,it just proves that the letter is right isn't it?How you want me to take it back now,i dun understand.Because you think you know what the letter is,when infact,you don't even know a single thing,so if you want to stay upset,go ahead,but not at me,at yourself because you "assume" things again...Like aways,but this time,you're not only wrong,you're totally not in the situation...

someone said it's better to leave...

I finally got to lie on my bed and sleep properly last night...Also had a exchange of conversation with someone unexpected last night...Someone told me that my presence is actually more of a problem than help to...this important person to me... I should leave den only will the other person be really happy,this someone knows the best ba,if that's what the best for the other person....Ok,i'll do anything to see that person happy...Including giving up what's dear and precious to me...If it will really make you happy this way...人一生最幸福的就是能遇到这一生的挚爱,我很高兴那人是你...真的...有人告诉了我如果我这样的离开你,会让你更高兴...那为了你的 笑...我愿意永远的离开你...
还来不及仔仔细细写下你的关于,描述我如何爱你 你却微笑的离我而去,这感觉已经不对,
我努力在挽回一些些应给的体贴,但感觉我没给你如此碎的愿望很卑微在凋谢,是我忽略你不过要的安慰
这感觉已经不对,我最后才了解,一页页不能翻阅但情节你好累,你我的卑微,为我掉过几次泪而憔悴,而我心碎你受罪你的美...
原谅我选择不联络，应为有人对我说，让你听到我会让你更难过，让你看到我会让你不知所措...应为你令我时时刻刻都念记.其实今天心中已无馀地,还是每天跟你,还是最喜欢你,就似你是我的清水与空气,从前已路过的怎跟你比美...

Do you???

Back le...Weak and tired from being there the entire weekend alone...Someone said would be there for me during this type of times,but i think that person forget le,maybe even forgot that i was in there...During the few days,was feeling so horrible...So terrified that it was the end le,but didn't have anyone to speak to or confide in...Now how le,for me?Do you even know that i'm out?or even do you remember me telling you that i was there?

....sadz timez

I didn't mean it when I said I didn't love you so ,I should have held on tight I
never should have let you go .
I didn't know nothing I was stupid, I was foolish ,I was lying to myself

I could not fathom that I would ever be without your love ,
Never imagined I'd be sitting here beside myself
Cause I didn't know you, 'cause I didn't know me ,
But I thought I knew everything ...I never felt
The feeling that I'm feeling now that I don't hear your voice
or have your touch and kiss your lips 'cause I don't have a choice
Oh, what I wouldn't give to have you lying by my side.
Right here, 'cause baby We belong together...

When you left I lost a part of me,It's still so hard to believe,
Come back baby, please Cause we belong together

Who else am I gon' lean on when times get rough
Who's gonna talk to me on the phone 'till the sun comes up
Who's gonna take your place there ain't nobody better

To:My Friend

I woke up because i heard you cry...I hoped i did it right,try making you smile all this nights.
Now i've completed what i set out to do,you must take care of yourself...This is just what i promised you,to be there always for you...Now that the sadness is almost over,go find the ones that can bring you laughter.It's not me that you are after,i know,esp that night you said "Fyi,we're just friends..." remember? I will remember,friends mah...If that is really what you want...Ok,i give it to you..My friend...

P.s:on a side note,to the person that gave me 121 missed calls(my new record)...It's very irritating...Please stop it,i gave you my answer already...

Marsh bit me...(^V^) Pain...

Yesterday,i went to see Lubin and his grandma one more time...Visited Marsh my son also...Played with him and he kept on trying to bite me,after a few frustrating moments,i finally let him succeed...hehe...but he bit so hard,he bit off my skin also...pain...(^V^)I will miss him so much nor....
I now have to go prepare for later le...Take care peeps...Take care of Marsh,Gwen dear...

Makes me wonder....(=_=)

God damn, my aching head...Decisions that made my bed...Now I must lay in it...And deal with things I left unsaid,i want to dive into you...Forget what you're going through...I get behind, make your move...
Forget about the truth,I've been here before....One day a week,And it won't hurt anymore...I caught you in a lie...But I have no alibi...The words you say don't have a meaning ...Cause..
I still don't have the reason,And you don't have the time
And it really makes me wonder,If I ever gave a f**k about you and I...
and so this is goodbye
Give me something to believe in,Cause I don't believe in you,
Anymore...Anymore
I wonder if it even makes a difference,,It even makes a difference to try
And you told me how you're feeling...But I don't believe it's true
Anymore Anymore...I wonder if it even makes a difference to cry
So this is goodbye

So painful....

Went to Mediacorp and was in the theatre for the production of the PSC night show...Haha,saw Michelle Chong,Guo Liang and Chen Tai Ming...Learnt a lot from the production...Went up to the producer's room to see for myself first hand also...How they work and operate the switches...
But the important thing was i think i really prefer TV production as compared to Radio production...
And hmm...something i should really get of my heart le,it's been bugging me for awhile...Sheryl,u remember the talk we had about "her"? That evening where we went home together?You and me had a long long conversation about "HER"...you told me what you thot of her and how her person is really like,and how she really treating people?
Well...I guess u were right about her...not really fully right but close ba...It's scary when i realised it...And hor,you must really be getting used to calling me in the middle of the night hor...(^V^)The record is 4.57AM!!! This is a very bad habit that we are cultivating...Hehe,you should change it,people later get jealous de...haha,esp u know who...(^V^)...And really really before i forget,THANKS AH,bimbo,for that bite on my hand(see attached picture above)...still dare tell me it's a "lovebite" somemore...Pain like hell sia you...(T-T)...

ok...if you want it that way...

Sigh~~~waited for a reply for more then ten hours le...no reply at all...not even a no...Instead only got one from Auntie Ong(Sheryl) just a few mins ago only...haha,sadz...Ok,no problem,i get your drift,if this is the way u want to reply me,den ok lor...i am silly not stupid,i can catch the meaning.I'll do my very best not to disturb you from now on ba...Save you the effort of deleting the msgs even b4 you read them...(^V^)No point... i cannot argue...Hands and mouth tied...and my end is near...You're my little Chu-Chi face...

"What have I got to do to make you love me?What have I got to do to make you care?What do I do when sickness strikes me....And I wake up to find that you're not the one there....
What do I do to make you want me?What have I got to do to be heard?What do I say when it's all over?
It's sad, so sad...It's a sad, sad situation...And it's getting more and more absurd
It's sad, so sad...Why can't we talk it over?It seems to me that sorry seems to be the hardest word to say"
If I got down on my knees and I pleaded with you,If I crossed a million oceans just to be with you...Would you ever let me down?If I climbed the highest mountain just to hold you tight...If I said that I would love you every single night...Would you ever let me down?
Well I'm sorry if it sounds kinda sad, it's just that...Worried, so worried...that you let me down...Because i really love you...

On a side note to Sheryl:Ok,i got your message...I'll agree to it lor...No choice rite?Haha...I got no more reason to say no to her request...Now it's my turn to say yes..hehe...she must really want it a lot to ask me in the middle of the nite...haha...i also remember the day you had to stay behind with me just to "help-out"...(^V^)you had to use my phone somemore...So the answer is OK!!!

Choo-Chi Face/Doll on Music Box/You two/Truly Scrumptious...all from Chitty Chitty Bang Bang...

You are my Choo Chi face... And i am your teddy bear...

(Pic:ME and Gwen inside the Esplanade Theatre Hall) p.s:taking pics is not allowed inside the hall.
(Pic:Me,Gwen and the show's main character...Chitty Chitty Bang Bang)

Went to watch Chitty Chitty Bang Bang yesterday...Quite nice...However,could have been because it was the Gala premier,dat's why the performers worked doubly hard...(^V^)...
Went with Gwen,my Mum and my Sis...Thot that i could wear our necklace one more time,but sorry that i didn't...And ya,i also had dinner at Outback Steakhouse,not bad,not bad at all...
Ate with my Choo Chi face...hehe...
Anyway,the story is about this old car,named Chitty Chitty Bang Bang(Chitty).It used to be a racing car until the Vulgarians from (guess where?) Vulgaria... decided to tamper with it's parts causing it to crash and become obsolete.Few years later,two children got to know of the car's story and wanted to save it from being scrapped...At the same time,the Vulgarian ruler wants to get his hands on the car also,therefore he sends his two evil henchmen to steal the car.After some twists and turns,the two children manages to get the car and the evil ruler gets their Grandpa..(=...=)6
Now the children with their father have to embark on an adventure to save their Gramps and the country of Vulgaria from their evil ruler with his Baroness and the Child-Catcher...Yes,that's right,the Child-Catcher...The ending i will let you guys go find out yourself,but hmmm,all i can say is that...it's predictable la...

(Pic:Gwen and Me at Outback Diners)
(Pic:Eating at Outback)

The final episode tmr???

Tmr will be the final episode le,after tmr,there wun be anymore continuation... Hope i can really really get an enjoyment out of this finality...11 Days more to go,guys...人生短短几十年，不会开心，快乐每一天。。。so must enjoy the days the life give us to the fullest...

You really dun miss me do you?ok...

Today suppose to be a sunday...but really really sadz...I...Nvm...Nitez...

Countdown start le...爱无赦...

Spent last nite walking to a few places...from Marina,i walked all the way to Oxley Road...So many memories lie there for me...I slowly walked down towards Mohd Sultan Road and came to this place that was last time known as Tee-off Golf pub or something...it's oppsite UE square,remember UE square that place...yah that;s rite...,i cant really remember the name,but...it's not the name that is important...but what happened there...
After which i walked down towards Clarke Quay...and saw the G-Max...
Sigh~~~I remember how i used to pick her up after her sessions ended...but now her choice of company is no longer me le...I really missed the days...But i think i wun miss it for long...(^V^) Very soon will jie tuo le...14 days to the countdown...

Never regret love beacause...爱无赦

The first and maybe last Mrs Tan...

I wan to give credit to this girl here in the picture...Her name is Bilegmaa,she's really beautiful and she really loved me a lot,but she loved me more then i did and i had always treated her very badly.She was the girl that i was prepared to marry also,until the faithful day on Feb 8th 2006 where she left me forever.If i had treated her better maybe she wouldn't have left.But it's all over,i just want to tell her here that i did really love you and when i said i love you,i meant it...(^V^)
Why i am doing this now is because i want to settle somethings before anything ever happens to me...It's a great feeling to have someone to call your own.I owe her alot,i made a lot of promises to her and never made it come thru,i finally knows what it feels like now...I also owe her two years of her life,but i want her to know that i never regretted this two years...We had a lot of "FUN"...(^V^)Remember we bought the BB to play???hehe... I sent it to you somemore...
Sigh~~a person's importance to this world is decided by the number of people that will cry at his funeral,mine too...but i hope mine will be zero...I wun wan to see people cry...Esp...(=~=)
Dear,i hope you'll read my Blog and understand my feelings...I just hope she's happy with whichever guy she has chosen...but it's not me...but i give her my very Blessings...I wish you happiness...

你要加油。。。

如果问我死后的愿望，还有什么好留下，我立刻回答，一个好影子在地球上，毕竟我无法，时时刻刻看护在身旁。。。
如果老天只让我多爱你四天，我会要求，春天，夏天，秋天，冬天。。。如果老天要给我两天，我想再爱你在每个白天和黑天。。。如果他只给我一天。。。。我希望能爱你在我剩下的人生里的每一天。。。如果有人问我，我的爱得放下一个期限。。。我希望会是爱你一万年。。。

I feel like ....

Cmon la, i just ask for a little request earlier and you said ok,but now?i still yet to get anything leh...I know i'm not important to you,but dun make it so obvious can? Since you dislike the sight of me so much,den?Why still wan me around?
I beginning to feel like i'm a bloody nuisance myself too...Always have to use coax or even pull off special stunts just to.... Others spend half the effort but get twice the result and time.... I totally begin to despise myself...
Sigh~~i just need to hang on for awhile more le,the and my end is coming soon...

Sixteen days to go...

Our promises...you forgetting one by one....

Finally settled one of the last few items for you...Soon...i will be preparing to be gone le,hope the set can bring you utmost enjoyment and accompaniment...I will add a few personnel touches,hope you dun get upset...or angry...(^V^)
Well,it's getting closer and closer...19 days...Preparation for the D-day is beginning to get into motion,haizzz~~~hope you never forgot what we agreed on.Although after today,i know u already did...It's good however...if i leave,you wun feel sad for me le...(^V^)...because,you've gotten over me and dun feel anything for me already...Cause,the last thing i wan,is to see you sad...
Guys,you all already know what might happen le nor,remember what i asked you all to promise me?
When i'm not around,help her.... as how you wud help me if i was in trouble or bullied... That person MUST BE TREATED the same as me practically,u guys wun let me be bullied or see me in trouble rite?Hehe...And dun bully my SON,haha,ya confirm le,he is a BOI, i got someone...hmm... ok,something,(T-T) to carry on my legacy...hehe...that's what son's are for mah...

Cute right?

Omg people...This will be one of the cutest gers i think i will ever have laid eyes on or know about her... Haha...She's quite a dream ain't she???
Sadz...Too bad i got someone else le leh,if not ....haizzzzz.... so i will have to say no to her....haha(^V^)Therefore i will reject all everyone else...
Just joking la,k?Dun go sue me ah....to the reader....
But really la,i where got time to look for a new one le?I already on time shortage already,find new one some more nor....Old one cannot settle le wor how to settle any new ones???huh huh huh???
Time's almost up,20 days to go...

曾经在不知多久前的某年的某月的某一天，我决定爱上了你。。。
如果爱你是个错，那我这辈子从来都没对过。。。
但我的爱已有了期限，我只能爱你爱到。。。
某年某月的某一天直到我微笑的闭上眼，
闪过心里最后的画面还是蓝天里的你。。。
爱到某年某月的某一天渴望一直守护一个人的感觉，
让我邀请你一起去看一看永远。。。

I know...

Unable to sleep,dun noe what happened to me son,think he is sick ba...Loss of hair i search on the net means that it might be mites...Gotta get him to see the doctor soon,it might be the last thing that i can do for him already...
In the afternoon just now,(Friday),u ask me out to lunch nor,was it because you already know that you decided to do other things during the weekend,so afraid that i wud make noise?I know...Dun need to go appease me like that de,u dun have to...I used to this kind of things le...Just didn't expect that you'll prioritise it over Marsh...Must be damn important for you then...
Anyway,i think i feel it's getting closer,since this morning,condition getting from bad to worse,well,God ah,i need only another 21 more days,make it a good solid 21 days...After that,i let you take over...OK?

Thanks God...(^V^)
Nitez ppl,i gotta continue surfing to see which doctor is the best,attach a magic show for you all to enjoy...

thursday

i miss you like this way...

I wun be around forever...and 我以为....Ok?

In June,time was beautiful and moments were cherished...
In August,things could be said to be looking up at the peak which means the only way was down...
In October,time is scarce and dreams are cold like the upcoming of the Winter season...
In the future,time is something that i can afford no more...
I wun be around forever,it's a fact,you know it,i know you know it...We just cannot face it...
痛是什麽感觉？是想呐喊却无言。心被你一片一片撕下还不肯破裂
是谁让你转变？不再留恋我的体贴。你用背叛告别从前，我只想对你更好不埋怨
我以为爱是痛苦的慈悲。熬过宽容的疲惫，幸福会给我抚慰。。。心疼你的泪水，原谅你的不对，只求交心不苛求完美。。。我以为爱是痛苦的滋味，你会让我不后悔这样把你宝贝，但你却教会我懂爱你可悲，爱不在了做什麽都枉费。。。。

A church...

After school,i was pretty upset actually but what to do?I noe my standing...Before going home for dinner,i happened to walk past a church,dun noe what came over me,but i decided to take a step in...I suddenly began to pray for something...I have only really prayed seriously for a few times in my life,this is one of those rare times that i meant it...
An unselfish prayer for someone...but a selfish reason for praying,but it really is not that bad if u
feel like me...haha...i start to sound silly...but i was already silly before it...so is it considered start???hmm....

要记得我哟。。。(^V^)

Hey hey,woke up early today...Gotta go to "school' later...Yupz, school(^V^),i will be there later...
For most prob the whole day later today...Hope that it can end early and i will be able to come home ba...
At least i wun be alone...Just hope that Sheryl wun be too late again later,the other time i pick her up hor,piang eh,she made me wait nor,then we were late for the session...This is something new this time,better be there early,never go before,dunno will there be any complications...
Thinking alot this past few days,really surprising how people can feel differently on the same subject...
Some are afraid of change,want to stay where they are and are unable to take on new challenges...Not wanting to get hurt...I dun blame them,protecting one self is human nature,perfectly normal...
There are also this small group of minority whom are spurred on by challenges,what you think of as impossible could also be impossible to them..But to them,impossible is nothing...Even thou you are faced with failure as a possibility,you stare it straight in the face and tell the other person that you dun care if they are going to drop,i want to get it on between us while we still can...
Both groups are right in their own aspect,just how you look at them...
For me,i can only say,"Dun worry,you're not wrong(^V^)" to the first group and "sorry,i cannot do it" to the second...They'll know who they are...
Well,gotta to "prepare" for skool le...

Special announcement for two people:Sheryl,the answer you always wanted,and i refuse to tell you in person...haha...i feel better disturbing you like that,can boost my blog hits somemore:"Yes,very beautiful"Happy now?

And den Jolin nor..."Always like dat de you(^V^),make me wait and wait for you to end it,faster end it soon and take your thing from my place..."hehe, joking,not angry,but really lah,faster claim ur thing ok???

Take care people...Esp you,Gwen,keep it on you,it will protect you de,our charm our promise...And take care of our "son"....Son right? hmm...

Superbad movie review

Superbad!!! movie review... Nope,it does not mean that this movie is lousy,infact,it's plain hilarious...
But beware,really really coarse language is to be expected here...The main character,curses and swears every min of the show.However,it really makes out to be a great movie.According to someone in my car who said,4 star rating movie wor...It lives up to it's rating albeit it could do with less cussing and swearing...
The movie begins in pre-high school graduation period...Remember this word guys,"PERIOD" it makes a major appearance in this movie.(^V^)...Back to movie,it portrays two high school would be grads who would be splitting up after so many years together as best friends...
But the two of them want to go out with a bang,failures at school have caused them to be "unused" for the past 3 years and deemed as the low-lifes of school,not getting invites to parties,not having any girlfriends and worse of all they are still virgins...
Gathering another one of their friends(who prides himself by owning a fake ID),they set out to change their future...What does fate hold for them?Watch the movie to find out...
And btw,this movie will greatly change your perception on Police Officers...hehe...really greatly...

As an ending,i would like to say,Thanks for watching together with me...By the time this is posted up,you'll have read "it"...Take care...Dun worry about what i said you be doing on Sunday...

Overall rating for movie: a cool 9/10...
Recommend to watch:Yah,you guys should watch it,but to inform you ah,it's a M18 movie and really alot,alot of vulgar language...

Book of no return...

Today the book should be on the way to it's destination le bah...U've got a test tmr,i dun wanna disturb you today,wun find you...But that doesn't mean dat bu hui xiang ni...Tmr will be the acid test for us,i dun want to say too much now...

Am i huggable?

Today,had dinner at this Korean Charcoal BBQ restaurant after i had settled my car...Was involved in an accident with a taxi,couple of days back...Anyway,back to the dinner...Warning for you guys out there:When you going for Korean food,be sure to always ask first if they would be giving you a humongous portion of side dishes.We learnt it the hard way...(T-T)...
However,food was good thou...Service was quite good,the staff attentive to your needs until *hehe* someone "important " appeared...I had to stand to welcome him...=) Whenever he went toilet,i also had to stand to eat my food...
This action of mine caused somebody to laugh non-stop till tears appeared...and...that wasn't the last time i saw the tears that night...It appeared again...when we were home...Sorry,dun cry for me ok?I dun deserve it...And...im really very huggable...right???(^V^)
Soon...you'll be receiving the book...den things will change...Take care...

I will be fine...

Went to watch Mr Woodcock last night...Sigh~~~someone was supposed to turn up but i think maybe the other outing was much more fun,that's why there was a no-show...Sadzzz...
Anyway,since things are now like this already,if that is how i deserved to be treated,den ok lor...
As for myself,u guys dun nid worry too much about me la...I'm fine,nothing will happen yet...

Btw,gotta provide the answers for the 心理测验i gave a couple of weeks back(pls refer to the left side)

A)If you chose this,the feelings that you are feeling for your partner is regret,you are already regretting choosing your current partner.Most prob you two are already arguing quite often.

B)If you chose this,the feelings that you are feeling is that you are already regretting your decision...But due to whatever love you have left for him,is keeping you from telling him anything that will affect your relationship.

C)If you chose this,the feelings that you are feeling is one of whole hearted love,you will overlook all his bad points to just stay with him...

Hope it helps you guys....Cheers...

Will i be forgotten???or will you Remember me this way?My special way....

Every now and then,we'll find a "special friend",who never lets us down,who understands it all,reaches out each time you fall,you're the best that I've ever found,i know you can't stay,but part of you will never ever go away,your heart will stay...
I'll make a wish for you and hope it will come true...That life will just be kind,to such a gentle mind...
If you lose your way,think back on yesterday...Remember me this way,Remember me this way...
I don't need eyes to see,the love you bring to me,no matter where I go and I know that you'll be there...Forevermore a part of me,You're everywhere,I'll always care...

And I'll be right behind your shoulder watching you...
I'll be standing by your side in all you do...
And I won't ever leave,As long as you believe,You just believe...
You've got a part of me on you...

野百合也有春天....

“彷佛如同一场梦我们如此短暂的相逢,你像一阵春风轻轻柔柔吹入我心中,而今何处是你往日的笑容,记忆中那样熟悉的笑容,你可知道我爱你想你怨你念你深情永不变,爱你想你怨你念你深情永不变,难道你不曾回头想想昨日的誓言..."

You guys take care nor...

Hello Kitty Tattoo!!!

Yesterday,saw this hello kitty tattoo...Damn interesting...Managed to see it mainly because of Sheryl hor... Because yesterday after school i was with her for sometime...Haha...We were so seriously playing Black Magic,White Magic and even Silver Magic!!! So sadz....(^V^)
Den because i went back late so i managed to see this lady with the tattoo...Abit blurry thou...
Well,anyway,staying back late was quite hmm....productive...We made plans to go eat Moroccan food,crabs...But that's for much later...
Oh ya.....After so long my report is finally churned out....It's not nice...So sadz....(^V^)but still must continue on with daily life right???Life is never a bed of roses,even if it is,it's still full of thorns...
Take care peeps...Enjoy your day to the max ah...Cheers...

...the days i miss

I'm not really gonna complain anymore le,i tried whatever i could to salvage the situation that has aroused recently... Sometimes一个手掌拍不响...I can't do anything if i'm not allowed to do anything
... Since that's how you decide you want things to be,i will keep quiet...
I wun be around forever,it's a fact,just wanna get as much happy memories as possible while i can...

"I miss it when my phone will ring in the morning with sweet little good morning msgs...
I miss the days where a day would end with a nice little dinner together...
I miss the days where i didn't need an excuse to look for you...
I miss the days where we would have no problems meeting...
I miss the days that you would look for me...
But most of all.... I miss you..."

This month always sux....解脱...

October come liao lor....Pattern also start liao lor....Sigh~~~The both of us ah...

Today it comes from a song...

变了心的人,越想越伤人...枯坐到清晨,阳光替房间开了灯...
想!若结局一样,又何苦再想...伤!若让人成长,我为什么怕分手的伤...
解脱...是肯承认这是个错,我不应该还不放手,你有自由走我有自由好好过
解脱...是懂擦干泪看以后,找个新方向往前走,这世界辽阔,我总会实现一个梦

爱我的人和我爱的人

盼不到我爱的人,我知道我愿意再等,疼不了爱我的人,片刻柔情它骗不了人,我不是无情的人,却将你伤的最深,我不忍我不能,别再认真,忘了我的人。。。
离不开我爱的人，我知道爱需要缘分,放不下爱我的人,因为了解她多么认真,为什么最真的心,碰不到最好的人,我不问我不能,拥在怀中,直到她变冷。。。
爱我的人为我痴心不悔，我却为我爱的人甘心一生伤悲,在乎的人始终不对,谁对谁不必虚伪
爱我的人为我付出一切,我却为我爱的人流泪狂乱心碎,爱与被爱同样受罪,为什么不懂拒绝。。。痴情的包围。。。

So painful...

Good de morning people... Just woke up...(T-T) Tired and feeling uncomfortable abit painful infact(dunno why or where,just feel uncomfortable)
Went to Batam yesterday,to buy donuts...Donuts that i owe and promised...Dun think we going anywhere anytime soon,so might as well settle what i can,while i can or when i can...
我谁？我是Louis nor...从来都是说话算话的人，最讨厌说话不算话和和不守诺言了的感觉...(^V^)
because i know how it feels like to be on the receiving end,so i dun want anybody to feel it,esp the important one...
Well,about the trip ytd,i went to Harbourfront,got a ticket and took the hour long ride to Batam...Wasn't supposed to go without company lah,but people must have been held up with more important people and meetings,so just placed me at the back of the mind and forget to contact me...but it's ok...我慢慢习惯在幕后了...
Back to the trip,the trip there actually lasted 1hr and 20 mins nor...piang eh,lucky i had my mp3 wit me,if not i'll die of boredom inside the ferry...The fun part was actually when i went into the Batam center ferry terminal,wow...the money changers there hor,OMG... They were actually super hot girls inside the counters practically using those type of very 风骚 or what we call very 爹type of voice to attract customers...I didn't know that a simple line of"先生要换钱吗？"could sound so flirtatious and 淫荡...hehe...Too bad i changed $$$ in Singapore already,if not sure change there de...(^V^) No wonder all the Singapore ah peks go there to invest their CPF...if i live that long hor....hehe...*joking la hor ppl,i not this type of ppl,i very good boy de...In fact someone said i'm silly for going there just to buy donuts...for you...i really am...*
After i cleared immigration,walked over to the Megamall... First thing i did there was to go A & W to eat... Tried their cheese balls,omg they were very nice,decided i had to get them later again for someone to try it also...Which i did and in fact,i also took one of their Mugs back for souvenir...
Went to get somethings for myself,den went to their super-market for shopping...Bought quite a few things and only after i paid for them,did i remember that i have not bought the donuts yet!!! I would later have to queue with all the heavy shopping bags!!! Sadz...
However,queuing up was relatively easy,just lug around a few plastic bags mah,then point point point at which donuts u wan before u go pay for it and lug around another few more bags till u get on the ferry back lor...Took the 8.30pm ferry back and my trusty mp3 player came to my rescue again...
Coming back was much faster and took really only one hour...Reached Singapore at 9.30pm cleared customs by 10pm and went on a personal delivery service... Wasn't home until 12,and after bathing,was so super shagged that i slept till now...sigh~~~ Still being ignored...Enjoy your day people...I know i wun...

This is for我爱的人

我知道故事不会太曲折，我总会遇见一个什么人，陪我过没有了她的人生，成家立业之类的等等。。。
她做了她觉得对的选择，我只好祝福她真的对了。。。
爱不到我最想要爱的人，谁还能要我怎样呢？
我爱的人不是我的爱人，她心里每一寸都属于另一个人
她真幸福幸福得真残忍，让我又爱又恨她的爱怎么那么深
我爱的人她已有了爱人，从他们的眼神说明了我不可能
每当听见她或他说「我们」，就像听见爱情永恒的嘲笑声。。。。
Okay?

Nitez people...

My heart hopefully will go on...

It's late,cannot sleep...Run out of medicine le and my head is as troubled and as pain as my heart...I actually pretty much guessed it would come to this...It's finally October le,the part where i feared will come is finally upon us...except this time...it might be forever...Every year i know this period will be like that,but this time,i really put my heart and effort into it...but...seems like it still is not enough...
I will never leave you and as long as you keep the necklace and ring beside you,my presence will always be with you...Hopefully nothing happens and we can carry on our story...

"在你左右还要多久,
怎么样才能让时间倒流,
每一分每一秒都珍重,
握紧的手不愿放松,
十点半的飞机它在等候,
不要再让自己的眼泪流,
我必须要走,
要记得,
我们的故事真难忘,
太多的回忆和希望,
不管它有多疯狂,
我愿意一生收藏,
我们的故事不能忘,
太多的情节要发展,
不要放弃因为有一天缘份会继续..."

Lunch lunch,dinner dinner!!!

(This is Jolin蔡依林 newest MV爱无赫...She looks way better than the Jolin i know personally...hehe)
Very early GOOD MORNING to you ppl!!! Never see me so early before right???(^v^) Feeling chirpy today,hehe...Meeting ppl for lunch and dinner...Yipee!!!
But the past two days was abit sad la hor...I had a bunch of things not going for me,including a few broken promises...A few on Saturday and one on Sunday...*sigh~~~* Sometimes,i really wonder,am i wrong in trying to ask for somethings to keep me happy...Certain things i want are not given to me,therefore i need to be abit tactical and try to make do with what i can,as for the rest...i have to ask for it...but seems like i asking for too much...Don't worry,i wun let you make anymore silly promises le...I dun wan to be upset at u anymore...
Anyway,Promises are really just verbal agreements made to be broken,it's just that they are beautiful while they lasted,and treasured when they end...
But dun worry,all my promises to you will always stand and i wun break them de...Not to you...(^V^)
Well,gotta go to class later,really looking forward to lunch later also...Hehe...But i really hope nothing goes wrong again...I will be really really upset and miserable if we cant go for it this time...Anyway,i dun think anything will happen de,sometimes i really 想太多...=)

Show-Bet on It....Enjoy!!!

Sigh~~~Regretting probably my worst decision ever liaozzzz....

Just returned home...and i am regretting probably my worst decision made ever....... I had just told somewhat,most prob the most important person in my life at this point now,the last thing that she should know now...
Thot of telling because i had made a promise never to keep anything to myself...but how? Ended up making me regret dat i did so...I mean like,i told u because it's you,i worry and dat i care....den??? What was the reply that you gave me?At this current situation and current time,you can still lie straight to my face???You might as well gimme another slap to my face right???平时你怎样骗我，我都随便你，可是你今天竟然这样当着我的面，想要瞒骗我。。。我是傻，不是笨nor。。。

“如果留下多一秒钟
可以减少明天想你的痛
我会愿意放下所有
交换任何一丝丝可能的占有
幸福只剩一杯沙漏
眼睁睁看着一幕幕甜蜜
不会再有原来平凡无奇的拥有
到现在竟像是无助的奢求
我已开始练习
开始慢慢着急
着急这世界没有你
已经和眼泪说好不哭泣
但倒数计时的爱该怎么继续
我天天练习
天天都会熟悉
在没有你的城市里
试着删除每个两人世界里
那些曾经共同拥有的一切美好和回忆
爱是一万公顷的森林
迷了路的却是我和你
不是说好一起闯出去
怎能剩我一人回去”

时间真得越来越少。。。

Sorry i cudn't update my blog over the weekend,something happened to me and i was unable to get access to my computer...I had to keep it from a certain someone,infact,i had hoped to keep it forever,but it still came out....sigh~~~
I want that person to know that i kept it from you because i didn't want you to feel sympathy for me,i wanted you to look for me because you wanted to...but as it turned out,i was wrong...you never did...
As a matter of fact,our contact today has really been very brief,you sound like u cant wait to end conversation...How can two people so close,change attitude towards each other over a period of 5 days???I can only wonder...You can only imagine how it feels when ur there all alone and with no one to talk to and interact with,and you will never feel it,because i will never let it happen to you...
Somemore,time is not really on my side anymore...I really treasured the times and hope it can come back again,and be like before... Until the time really is up and it ends....

"Girl* 每当我开始沉默的时候
你比我更难过好像你的错
*每当我梦想未来的时候
你兴奋的感受比我还要多

*我不是故意对你冷落
大部份的时候我不够温柔
Girl 我强烈感到时间不够
想牵着你的手对抗寂寞"

不怕相思苦，只怕你伤痛，怨己怨人在风中，聚散都不由我,不怕我孤单，只怕你寂寞，无处说离愁

Back home early again...(T-T) but at least not alone on the trip back today...had a *^V^* great company back home...
However---sigh~~~nvm...dun wanna complain anymore le...(^V^)I already feeling sick since this past two days,going to die le...=p So no use making noise right,must be happy at what i have gotten out of it le...
Anyway,dun noe is it she read my blog ytd ah,so today she so helpful,i shall call her Sheryl today ---*today only(^V^)*... But thanks ah,for just now... I needed THAT to BRIGHTEN up my day...hehe... Joking ok? Really Thanks...
It's September Autumn秋季来了,soon it's going to be October...Every year always this period will like dat,will this year be the same?
This time.................Even i also dun know.........

秋意浓，离人心上秋意浓，一杯酒，情绪万种
离别多，叶落的季节离别多
握住你的手，放在心头,我要你记得，无言的承诺
不怕相思苦，只怕你伤痛，怨己怨人在风中，聚散都不由我
不怕我孤单，只怕你寂寞，无处说离愁
舞秋风，漫天回忆舞秋风，叹一声，黯然沉默
不能说，惹泪的话都不能说，
紧紧拥着你，永远记得,你曾经为我，这样的哭过

Back to school....

Today i finally can go back to school le,but i had totally no sleep last night and i have a $@#$%^* headache now that's the size of Manhattan... Sadz,but it's hurting me like hell,but so what? I gotta handle it on my own...Anyway,just step home,most prob gonna have my 寂寞牌炒饭again...Been a long time since i ate on my own le,and looks like i might have to get use to it all over again,but i'm not complaining...(^V^)
However,food today all taste super bland.I ate curry puff just now with super sweet tea,and THEY ALL TASTED LOUSY and BLAND!!!didn't even finish eating them...
Piang eh,the class itself also wasn't an enjoyment...Nearly fainted in class and was not able to be on the receiving end of anything...And it seems like the ppl all around me were also affected...Haha...
The plus point was that today...Auntie Ong was in a skirt nor!!! I would usually add wolf whistles now,but it is so seriously not for her...I mean...she does look more demure and might i say-----very pretty? But it's soooo not you!!!Haha,i'm gonna get it from her when she sees this.
But thanks to her for the past few day la hor,she helped me abit,it was slightly difficult for me to past the time,but at least she was the one that helped..."HELPED" la hor... Ended up i had to clear it up myself also...(^V^)

Anyway,my head is really really hurting now,might even skip dinner,i'm eating alone anyway,so early good nitez to you all people...But really cannot sleep properly nowdays...

“我很不想让你找到离开的理由，每一夜闭上眼睛，我看到了恶梦，你微笑但是旁边的人不是我
天空切开一道裂缝，直接割到我心中，不想装作脆弱，也不想爱得懦弱
其实我非常爱你不想失去你，难道我没有权利说我不愿意，你给了他的吻，虽然只有余温
可知道我多渴望抓住你的心,我知道他很爱你,你怕他伤心
我每天假装开心害怕你离去,可不可以任性，求求你不要去,藏在我心里最后一句
其实还爱你。。。”

“找到爱幸福的人肯不肯躲起来，正在寂寞的人能不能站起来
我在这里陪你无奈，读过小说里面人家等待，更习惯等待
唱过人家的爱更想找爱，你喊出来我静下来，都为了爱爱爱
有一天翻开辞海找不到爱，花不开树不摆还是更畅快
爱还是会期待，还是觉得孤单太失败，我爱~故我在”

Seriously,in this incident 好人没好报

I just freaking step into my house,was running u-turns just now 3times....Finally got the message to leave,OK,i leave.... Wanted to play it safe for the person involved,what the hell do i care if the other party also dare feel awkward anot?Not my 代及(dai-chi),he's not my concern...I was concerned about your face...I dun wan you to be embarrassed by the situation,so i asked if it was safe...In-fact,i was told that u wud be staying at home...So how i know what happened?
So wad happened,我被呼之则来,辉之则去。。。我属狗，我不是狗！
I dun mind how i am treated recently or whenever,but do i deserve it this time?I was sending something that i HOPED she would like,i didn't see you or pick up your call,dat means i deserve what happened after dat is it?
Am i worth only that much to you?You always get upset at no particular reason now,and remember what we two agreed on for 3 months???How many times have you broken it already?You even broke the so-called compensation and other promises...But because it's you,it's ok...It's part and parcel of two people being together,friction is always bound to happen...You can mistreat me,scream at me,ignore me...but never never ever treat me like that again...
There are certain things you do behind me sometimes and i understand where it's coming from and your intentions that you don't want to upset me,i understand,but that doesn't mean i agree with you...

And...hope you like what's in the box,it's specially picked just for you...

People....看看就算了，不要又开始烦这烦那的。。。ok?我讲讲罢了。。。(T-T)
those close to me know me,i just say say only,i'm stuck with her le...

Nitez people...

Sorry for the long hiatus people....

Hey guys,i'm back,sorry for disappearing for so long...Something happened last week Sunday and i was really really very upset...Something about a broken promise,but i used to it le...Didn't want to get into an argument with the involved party so decided to keep my mouth shut and not mention anything for awhile...Now it still hurts but beginning to feel better for me,so i can finally continue my blogging days again...
The above video was taken at a camp-mates wedding this sunday(not the sunday that i mention above ah...)Anyway,Pak was drunk lah hor,the video shows how wasted he was...It's the "DRUNKEN CHUNG-PAK"show...and it can be found on Youtube under the same name...I was not supposed to go fetch him de,but due to the same reason that happen nowdays with alarming frequency,(yes,i know what happened again),i found myself free to fetch him home...*sigh~~~*
Well,hope dat 老天会对我好一点...


“我时间不够了，却什么都不能做和说,可是却想什么都做和什么都说”

A saying i think interesting:

“爱一个不爱你的人好难。。。爱一个爱你的人是一种说不出的幸福。。。那~~~爱一个不敢承认也爱你的人算什么?明明喜爱对方的两个人为什么可以那么要好却又怕在一起？”

4 a.m...

It's almost 4 am le,and i still tossing and turning in bed...Dunno whys but i cannot get to sleep...Maybe it's because of the talk i had slightly earlier ba,i trying very hard to be cool about it,however it still runs inside my mind alot...
Sometimes,the answer is just and has always been right in front of your eyes...Look around you,the world is yours,and i'll do everything to further brighten it up for you...

*sigh*有时候不是每件事都要自己来的。。。你有我啊。。。你是漂亮可人的小公主，凡事都烦不到你。我是丑陋的仆人，你的一切悲愤和伤痛都让我来替你背吧。。。因为是你，所以我愿意。。。

Win le,but no meaning....

Managed to strike 4d ytd,but dunno why leh,not happy to strike it at all...I mean,it's not that i'm not happy to strike 4d,who wouldn't be happy to strike? But the real meaning behind it was missing leh...
Top 3 prizes was supposed to be the best,lasting for at least a year,but there was also an agreement b4 that saying that consolations and starters also consisted of a month...But i promised not to complain de...I got into trouble recently,so now 怕怕de...REALLY....SO...people...usual procedure ah...看过就算operation...I just feel abit let down only,that's all...Not harbouring any bad or evil thots...(=...=)6

Anyway,went to watch the Bourne Ultimatum ytd too...Enjoyed the show tremendously,tried to ask for something in the theatre nor...but got rejected=(
Sadz...I really wanted to have it badly,without having to force or anything,but i understand,although i understand,it doesn't mean i agree,i just dun....never mind....

But really,i not angry or anything,just feel abit being short-changed on my side...
At least(^V^),i know that this time god is on my side...He's helping me this time,just that maybe some people dun believe the signs that they see and still insist...顽固。。。(^V^)

"世界上最远的距离，并不是我在妳前面而妳不知道我爱妳。。。
而是明明喜欢彼此的两个人。。。却不能够在一起。。。”

Working at the car-wash!!!

hmm...washed my car earlier just now...had abit of help,but the car did not turn out really as good as expected...well,we're not professionals,but it's not about the quality of the car polish,but the ability to spend time doing something together... Times like this dun come easy for me,so whatever free time i manage to get is quality time...

Really wanna get closer but not able to...Den upset people during dinner,didn't wan to,but the feeling just suddenly come,almost said something stupid,but lucky i controlled it down,if not i will have World War 5 in my room,however seems like i cant control my facial expressions...
I'm going to be scolded tmr morning...

Good nitez people...

阿沁-其實還愛你

Hope u'll enjoy this song..."HANDS"

Came back le,my leg is really starting to hurt and i was so right about not bringing the cream part....*&*^%$&*%*
*sigh* den i'll just have to wait for it to heal itself lor...Pain....

Someone told me somethings dat i knew i shd have been upset with today,but for some reason i wasn't...It was like i knew i shd have upset myself and sulk,but hor,even after knowing who was the other person dat went out together with....I was strangely calm....Why ah?Maybe because i know wad is happening now ba,although it will be difficult,but i trust what i heard on a certain night...I know what i feel and i admit it openly,however,for some people,it is hard to come to terms with some things...Like want to give me the necklace,but cannot do it without torturing me first nor...(^V^)...So what can i do?Nothing lor,wait for the necklace to come back lor...And seriously,we all know that it will come back to my neck de,just when only???

Sweet Dreams people!!!

En-En...and her anyhow think "Gan-Ma"

just came back from a very very busy day... went to meet my god-daughter=) En-En... She damn cute now!!! She can start talking now and now talk non-stop... So cute........
But all this only happened after i had a discussion with her "gan-ma"... Dunno what happen nor...Last time i pull off stunts,i got scolding,den when i guai-guai never disturb anybody hor,my presents all of a sudden become stupid presents....Diao....(i know u are reading this^V^)
So,ok lor,start shua pi qi lor,dun answer calls lor,send depressing smses LOR...Never give people chance to explain(T-T) Den tell people made a decision liaozzz... Humph...
Lucky can settle,if not...hmm,hmm,hmm... Decide wad to do to you lata....=)
And ah,i did give you one last chance to run away and be free ah...from now onwards,whatever i do,dun complain that i bully u nor...(8=^V^=8)

Den after meeting En-En,went to play badminton,damn suey nor...whole day kanna smack at by people,even the one dat never manage to hit anyone hor,also decided to play TennisTon nor(Tennis+Badminton)...Throw the shuttlecock up and den aim me...sobz... poor me...

Den my leg also so pain,den nobody help me apply disinfectant lotion...sigh...hope dat someone will liang xin fa xian and do something for me tmr lor...but dunno why leh,i got a feelin dat that person will totally forget to bring the cream and we'll end up almost late...
(^V^)

Good Nitez people...

A memo:For the Memories

this is for a special Beautiful Girl in my life for this past years:

Sorry,but from today onwards i'm really going to disappear from the face of your world...
I hope you'll get better soon and if there is a chance,we'll meet again in some corner of the world like before,only that i hope it would be under so much better conditions....
I really had caused you so much pain and anguish...I would do anything to make you feel better,really anything...Hoped you liked what i last sent you....for the last time...

You may not understand,but this is for you...

“本来不觉得你特别疼我，直到你不再疼爱我以后
已经过去雨伞和雨衣不会再庇护我
本来不觉得你特别疼我，直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了,手写的留言对象已经不会是我
本来不觉得你特别疼我，直到你不再疼我以后
来不及了,长长的简讯对象已经不会是我
本来不觉得你特别疼我，直到你放弃爱我以后
来不及了,对不起长大太慢
害你遗失了我，抱歉让你白费了这么多”

Disappointing Day so far peeps...

Standard wanna say things routine except i cannot lambart so much,will get the hairdryer treatment and another round of (i-dun-even-wanna-think-about-it) later de,so guys use your imagination as much as you all can for the topic...
BTW,FOR YOU:everything i do,i do it for you,and only because it's you nor....


绝对绝词：(T-T)
"因为遇见你那天起,生命开始更加有趣,就连呼吸的气体都有幸福的动力.因为我已经肯定要的伴侣就是你" "在我眼里你永远最美,连你一个微笑也都会让我醉...你所谓的幸福我想给,以为手不放开就是痴心绝对...每一滴眼泪说着你要好好走,男人流泪比流血加倍心痛"

30 Things Guys Want Girls To Know!!

1. We're not as perverted as you think we all are.
2. No matter what YOU say, your ex-boyfriend IS a LOSER.
3. We like you to give us hugs and kisses sometimes too.
4. Don't argue with us when we call you beautiful.
5. Don't treat us like crap, what goes around comes around.
6. We know you're pretty, that's one of the reason's we're going out with
you.
7. Don't go into detail about your period. It scares us.
8. If you have cramps and we ask you what's wrong, just tell us it's that
time of the month and nothing more.
9. If you really liked us for us, you would let us think that our mustache,
beard, or sideburns looked cool.
10. We never shave our legs. So get over it.
11. NEVER ask us if you can put makeup on us. It's just wrong............
12. Don't make bets about us, because one of your friends will tell us, if
you don't.
13. When we tell you that you're not fat, believe us.
14. We absolutely do not care about the Backstreet Boys, *NSYNC, 98
Degrees,
or what any other guy looks like for that matter.
15. We may not be able to pee accurately all of the time, but at least we
can stand up and go pee.
16. Just cause you think you're always right, doesn't mean that you don't
have to apologize when you do something "wrong."
17. You expect us to say and do sweet things for you, but it would be nice
if you did the same every once in a while. We like to know that you love
us.
18. We can't always be spontaneous, so try to help us make the plans
sometimes.
19. Don't ask us to beat up another guy for you, cause you might get what
you wish for.
20. Never kick us in the nuts "just to see what we would say". That's just
mean.
21. Never pretend like you are going to break up with us and laugh when we
believe you.
22. Pamela Anderson's boobs aren't fake anymore, but we like yours better
anyway.
23. Size doesn't matter, except to idiots who don't want a relationship.
24. PMS is not an excuse.
25. If you want us to put the seat down when we're done, you should put it
up when you're done.
26............ Don't tell us how cute your ex-boyfriend was. That doesn't
turn us on.
27. And always remember: The way to a guys heart is through his
stomach.....
and maybe....oh nevermind.
28. NEVER ask us to kiss other guys. You might be that comfy with your
friends, but to us it's just wrong.
29. We always notice how funny it is after your rip out our heart, stick it
down our throat and still want to be friends.
30. And last but not least: We know you're not always right, but we'll
pretend like you are anyway.

Sunday is not so sunny afterall....

Today is a Sunday...I got to spend the whole day at home...Well,it's not really that i cannot get out of bed...but more like i dun want to feel lethargic for no reason...It means *duh* that i dun want to get out of my room for no good reason when i'm sick like now...Much better den previously but still...feeling lonely and terrible all by myself at home... No company for two whole days(actually more then that....) is really weird but what to do?Told myself i gotta get use to it already.
Maybe when someday,i look back,it's not so bad a decision after-all...
But right now...my neck is still feeling the weight although i had the responsibility taken away from me albeit...it wasn't my decision...but i respect it nonetheless.... I mean...after what happened that nite,i have no right and no reason to reject whatever request was asked of me...Right?

*A kiss on the cheeks is a path to Heaven,A kiss on the lips......
i have reached the door to heaven,but am i worthy enough to step into heaven?I think not.....That's what the gatekeeper says....*

A Song to that someone...(u_u)It's a song for you...
我的感覺都在裡面了,(the hands),Dear...

For those affected by the previous day's posting...

The post below...well,it seems it had caused a lot of people to call me up and reflect it to me...
Some of you got it wrong,and some of you got it right,but i didn't tell you people dat...I just said nothing happened to all of you...
Erm... i dunno how to put it,but i edited the post almost immediately after posting,something which i know a blogger should not do...So some of you who called,only saw the edited post...Well,most of you actually saw only the edited post...
The original post was deemed too offensive...I didn't mean for it to come out that way,i just said what came to mind,maybe it was the way i put it but it was different from what you perceived... You'll really be shocked if you ever know what i meant and what u said...
I feeling really really sick now...Cant even get up properly now...
*sigh* cannot find anyone to rely on when i'm sick...feeling really lonely and terrible...

You people enjoy on my behalf ok?Take care...

A new beginning....

Today is 23rd August 2007...An ordinary day for most of you people...but for me....today is a new beginning le... It all started after the Batam trip,some things were apparently different le,but i could not put my finger to it... To make things worse,i got fever,resulting in a Grumpier and more irritated me...I snapped at people around me,especially the very important one...
We had a tough 2-3 days...But this morning it came to an end...

Anyway,while watching this,MTV on Cable TV is showing the trailers and and the making of Rush Hour 3...*sigh* i was supposed to watch it on the day it premiered in Singapore de...But it never materialised...I thot i knew why before,but only this morning i got the real reason... Will just have to wait to watch the DVD ba... Honestly,i dun blame anybody,seriously,but myself only...
It's been sometime since i last saw a movie in a theatre ba??? I should start to relearn the feeling of watching movies alone again...Actually,it's not that bad u know,at least u dun have to try to keep ur hands off the person beside you...

*edited post*

"What is promise?It's a verbal agreement made to be broken"

For you Dear...(^V^)

Back from Batam...

Back from batam le...Certain things did not go as expected and certain things exceeded expectations...
Upon reaching the place,we were ferried to the Holiday Inn hotel...After checking into the hotel,we made our way to Nagoya Hill shopping mall...We spent quite a lot of time shopping there and were pleasantly surprised by how cheap the things there were...I even got a pair of shoes for myself.
What was disappointing was that *sigh* certain promises were not kept and i was made to feel bad for even entertaining those thots....
I got royally slammed later that night by Pohs because of this,but that's between us la...Still the best's of friends...He's just damned worried about me and frustrated about what's happening...I know you'll read this sooner or later,so sorry bout the trip,Pohs...tell Jess sorry for me too...
Anyway,after Nagoya,we went to Megamall,if really anything,that's where true friends come to light man....Thanks for helping out there bros,appreciate it to the max nor...
Finally,our last stop was at 939 Golden Prawn...Ok...This wasn't my first place in mind but no choice,i couldn't change it at all...The food there wasn't really that great and expensive,the coconut's not really sweet but it's supposed to be the number one there...We even had to tah pau KFC back to the hotel for spares...
The ride back was when things became slightly interesting,we finally clicked...Just that the trip back was a little too short sia...We reached the hotel by 9pm and everybody washed up,changed and we went about doing our things...I tried but i failed to repeat what i got in the van...Maybe it was a long day,everybody went to sleep early...Not me thou,i had to do guard-duty nor,it's the 7th month after-all...Promised to not let anything happened and i got to write something on her hands...
That line,for forever....Will never change...

The next morning was supposed to have been the happiest moment of my life yet,but i was only to find out later that night that it was actually the worst moment for me...EVER...Period...I wun go into detail,but i will just say that things are actully...not so sunny for me...Honestly i feel like crap now,i lost all momentum in my efforts le,should i even dare try to continue after losing a person's trust?Should i?

Nitez people...(T-T)

Aftereffects of a most wonderful celebrariotn

Was suffering from the after-effects from the most wonderful birthday celebration in my life so far today...
Yesterday,i had so many things working for me,be it at my home or outside...I was happy that i finally got what i wanted,this time without any tricks or stunts...Nothing was forced and especially before the day ended,the last part was definitely willingly done...hehe(^V^)
The fun began actually the previous night before at the dinner at Se Ra Bel,last year,i had requested for it once,but was turned down due to a particular reason...But this year,things went smoothly,although there was a bit of trouble before it started but everything turned out fine...
It carried on till yesterday morning,which then lead to an afternoon at Vivocity watching 881...hehe...After which it shifted to my hse for awhile (^V^) and i was really really looking towards the night programme...
The nite prog did not go as how i planned,but it ended up somewhat close...From the trip up to the resteraunt it was perfect,but once at the table,somethings did not go as planned...However,amends are what i am good at,and i had to improvise...The band had to come much earlier and the drink had to change a wee bit...
But the best was for the last,have you guys ever had a time where you were not expecting anything and suddenly,it came to you...I had it last night,and even had a picture taken to prove it,but it's a bit personnel and i dun think the (Dang Shi Ren) would like me to share it at this moment in time(^V^)...Maybe next time,anyway,tmr i going to Batam,and might not be able to update for a the next two days,but will try my best...
Nitez ppl....

Today is my Birthday!!!

Hey....Today's my birthday!!!
I'm officially 25 now...*sigh* but still single...Was really hoping that it wasn't the way i wanted to mark my quarter of a century of living...(6_6)...
Please let it change from today onwards...At least from tonight onwards...
Someone asked me what present i wanted the most or needed the most just now before dinner,i really wanted to say there's nothing i need or want in life more than the "Ultimate Gift"...but i couldn't...So hum ji of me....Look down on myself...
Then i had dinner at a Korean resteraunt in Furama Hotel with all my family members only...(^V^)We had BBQ which was nice and rice cakes which were plain plain....Hmm...After which we all went to my sister's house to see her Ger Ger...It was plain cute to see a dog without a tail trying to wag it's tail....Haha,really funny...Now,waiting for the sun to come out again...to continue my day....

"If you feel someone's important to you,tell him,before it's too late.
Dun think or consider too much and don't be bothered by the looks of others...
You never know what'll happen in life...
When your last meeting might really be your last...He might just leave you one day..."

Jason's birthday....

Today is Jason Tan tua tow's birthday....Happy Birthday to you Da Tou....

Man U first match....

ManU's first match against Reading...Ended in a draw,sianz....0-0

蔡旻佑Evan Yo-我可以

Kusu Island trip...

Went to Kusu island today...Erm...The island was a bit small lah hor...and the place there hor...Piang eh...It is a place with no ELECTRICITY... We were wondering why was there no vending machines,den i realized that without power,how to have vending machines???(^V^)
Another thing happened... I dun think i'm assuming anymore rite???I think i shd be able to confirm le ma...
Also managed to put my skills to good use today and it seems like i haven't lost it at all...The customer was satisfied...
Den we went to have a Taiwanese dinner at Peng Lai Ge...We had Taiwanese or-jian,Lu-rou fan,Yan Su-Ji and hehe...Smelly tou-fu...
But the sad thing was that i didn't get to see this year's NDP firework...sianz...Hope i'll get to see it again...

Nitez ppl!!!

Class presentation day...

Today was a exam for us...We had to present our personal websites to the entire class as a project...Dun noe how i did and hope i did well....Well,everybody also presented a nice website individually...
The above picture is taken after we had finished filming in school...The person taking the picture is Hanisha,she had like....6 cameras hanging on her hands,everyone wanted a picture of this shot....hehe(^V^)
And...as i'm typing this now,i'm msging someone else...Having a bit of an argument,but nothing big,just a small tiff...We'll get over it soon....
Nitez people....

First Blood +200gold(^V^)

First Blood to Manchester United...(^V^)
Yesterday,we beat Chelsea 3-0 on penalties to bring back the Charity Shield...Van Der Sar was superb between the posts nor...Saved three spot kicks...Wow...Idol sia...
Anyway,this coming Sunday will be Man U's first game in the league...It will be against last season's surprise package of Reading...Hmm,wonder if the Royals would be as good they were this year as the last...
Other than that,today was a normal day in school...We watched Gladiator and went to complete our MTV project after that...
*sigh* Someone cut her hand and i was unable to do anything....So sad and i even promised to look after her some more....(T-T) Sianzzzz1/2....
Tmr got presentation to do le,so gotta go rest early,Nitez ppl....

For you...我可以忍受...(T-T)

我可以忍受妳不够爱我,我可以忍受妳有別的梦,就算是編謊話哄我,至少妳还...在乎我的感受...
我可以忍受眼神的空洞,我可以忍受妳时间不够用,却不能忍受做了那么多,是他拥有...我该得到的温柔...

爱着妳,是我改不了也不愿改的习惯.要放开,哪有那么简单.
了解妳,是我说不出也不承认的悲哀.包容妳,是我体谅的爱妳也当作应该.

不要说对不起,原来妳要的不是我
不要说谢谢你,說什么你永远在我心中
can u tell me why...这样的我-妳也曾爱过,不是嗎……

Well,i promised you guys a review on this movie...Here it is....

First things first...Do not,i repeat,DO NOT expect anything out of this movie when you go to watch it...It is one of the lowest forms of entertainment in the movie industry this year has provided...
Ok,after saying that,i feel that i can go back to reviewing the movie...The movie has a very basic cast of 7...I repeat,7 people~~~Not including the main two characters,the eerie innkeeper,two guys in masks,a police and truck driver that both appear for less then 5 mins...Well,that's preetty much the entire cast...Unless you count the few people who appear in the videos in the movie...Then yar,they are more...
The plot is also super simple,a couple on the verge of divorce drives down a wrong road and comes to this town...Only the innkeeper and the garage are working,and the garage closes at night...Den predictability kicks in,the couple's car breaks down and they are forced to stay overnite at this inn...
The wife also as usual will say no,but gets convinced by the guy in the end(so cliché),kaoz...
After which,strange things begin to happen,weird knocking on the doors,eerie video tapes and masked man start appearing...
Presumably,they are going to get killed and have to run for their lives,*sigh* everything you know will happen,it's just how they decide to scare u with it,simple cheap "B" grade horror flick...

Overall rating:3/10,(but because of the company i had,10/10...=>....)
Reccommend to watch?:Please lah,got better movies out there,use this only as a last resort if your date is really important to you...Mine was great,that's why i watched it,and...hehe... i didn't regret it at all....

Off day from school???

Today,had a rare time away from school...But i still ended up in one thou,not mine however...
But before that,i went to watch a movie.Anyone heard of the movie "Vacancy" at all?I will be doing the review later,but thought that i might as well go thru the day first...
I went to watch it at Jurong East,but we before the movie,we went to eat Bah Kut Teh...It's at Owen road and i must say that the side dishes there are slightly better than the main dish...
It's not that their soup wasn't nice,just that it's a clear based soup.We preferred the dark coloured ones...However their side dishes were heavenly...Their "Fen Chang" and pig's trotters were great...Smooth and not too tough to chew...Not too expensive also i must say(^V^)
After which,we made our way to Jurong east for our movie...Well,the movie actually was quite budget...You see what i mean during the review...But what mattered was the company i had with me...Which in the theatre was really what i had lah...Other than the two of us,there were only another OMG two people in the cinema...=) And i didn't know them
We were scared shitless man...Next time u try watching a horror flick with only 4 people...in an entire cinema....Scary...But like i said, i really didn't mind it due to the company i had...

Blah blah black sheep???

Open the new paper today and you'll realise something... There has been a lot of murder cases in Malaysia...Today's headlines is about the KL chopped body murder.Apparently,a man was chopped up by his wife and her lover and had his body parts placed into plastic bags which were then put inside a refrigerator...
The best part,the fridge was not turned on and could have been in there for up to one year...Maggots were found to have been feeding on the decomposed parts!!!
What is happening to our neighbours?What is on with them???Malaysia boleh somemore...Yah,right...If you think that only JB is unsafe,suck it in sistah...KL's not that safe also...
JB is already well known for it's negative practices...People who used to think that only Singaporeans were targeted,wwweeellllll.....they are also turning to their own kind...Everybody remember May??? She was raped by a bunch of guys while her bf watched...
The audacity of the rapists...They forced the couple of the expressway and yah lah,i have to admit it,May and her bf were damn suey to have their car breakdown when they reached a dead end...But that's beside the point,and she wasn't the only one,there was another case happening in Kedah at the same period of time...
Gone are the days where they approach Singaporeans at the checkpoint with a self-declared 'AIDS' syringe and rob us...Hmm...They are turning to their own kin now...
*sigh* Sadz...Why they must do that??? Robbing people...Actually i can understand,maybe they really have a family to feed...But rape??? I can't convince myself on this point...

Nitez people!!!

Wad a day...

hmm... Got hit in the face today... Damn painful sia... Den got someone upset at me...
*sigh* but really lah... I dun care wad others really think of it at all... The important thing is that what the most important person i feel thinks... Actually,what she really thinks also doesn't matter anymore le... I will always be doing something wrong de...
Anyway,today i returned a favour to someone le,i dun owe you for the tickets le nor...and *sigh* sorry for the ending...
Yesterday,i was really quite lonely and was actually waiting for a sign to be able to call someone,but it never came... I realised something in the end,i had forgotten my true intentions in the beginning...
You may have gotten another person to give you more,you can find a person with a better personality much much better than me,more fun to hang around than spending time with a loser like me,i dun blame you...But if you one day,need to jump off a cliff,i will never ever ever jump with YOU...Instead,i will be at the bottom cushioning your fall...Help you to walk again,until you are ready to leave me again...
I will keep all promises made to you...and... dun worry,understand that you dun need to do the same,because...u are u,and...专属天使 will forever be yours and yours only...

Raining Raining day... Sadz...

Cotton passed away yesterday...I recieved the bad news last night,*sigh* feeling so down since ytd...I never really got a chance to take care of her and now...I wun ever have a chance le...
Yesterday,was also B.G's birthday...Suddenly it's been so long since i last saw her...
B.G,i wish you a very very happy birthday...Hope you're very happy now...

New Image!!!New Look!!!(^V^)

Dear people,as you all can see now,my blog has gotten a makeover...It's a new look now....
I added in a lot of new things,changed the background and made a few tweaks and adjustments...Hope you'll all continue to visit and enjoy my website...(^V^)

Very reluctant peekture!!! I admit...

This picture here nor... Was taken very reluctantly wor....This ger you see half-faced smiling like very pai seh to take peekture with me is Jolin Chong hor... We were supposed to take a picture together,but you can see one very beh-song face...(=...=)
So,boh pian lor... I also have to put it up on my blog lor... Wun be taking peekture with her for a vedi vedi long time nor....Anyway,she is no longer working at MSH anymore also leh,for now...
Today,was doing filming with my classmates and we had more N.G takes than normal...We had like one min of normal footage but more than 3 mins of N.G takes...We were laughing like crazy...Hehe(^v^) at a certain "Babagi"...Haha...
For people who want to know what's a "Babagi",you can go search it at youtube,i'll be posting it up there...
Well,as for normal filming,think we're gonna have to really work hard,cause i suddenly realise a lot of kinks in our scenes....Hmm...Got to smoothen it out soon....
Got class early tmr,nitez people....